Can someone press rewind on the remote of her life–
watch the blue static-grained screen with the word “Rewind” in the corner
like she did when she spent hours watching VHS Disney movies–
and tell her that she doesn’t need to look forward to the day
when she has her “adult life?”
When she’s on her own
and she has it all together
and she is her own person
and everyone admires how brave and independent she is.
Can someone tell her that that won’t happen right away?
That it won’t happen right after high school like she thought it would.
That it won’t happen after college either.
That, instead, she will find herself stuck in this transitional void
between college and . . . and whatever is supposed to come after.
And she will finally realize she must claw her way out of the dark uncertainty.
Life won’t be given to her nor be as easily obtained like everything else was:
good childhood memories,
good natural ability to accomplish things,
good work ethic.
No . . .
. . . if she wants the life that she always envisioned,
then she must work for it.
Must use her determination and grit to claw the vision out of her mind and place it in her hands.
I only wish–
I only wish that that little girl watching VHS Disney movies knew that.
And didn’t fault herself so much one day when she’s finally grown and life wasn’t just handed to her in a basket.